I really just wanna talk to you and believe that everything is gonna be ok. I’m continually searching for answers in my mind but I don’t have the courage to say them aloud. Sometimes I wanna scream at you and ask you what the fxck is going on but I don’t wanna revert back to a year ago where we were constantly arguing. I’m hurt. A deep silent kind of pain and I honestly wish you’d fix us. I would threaten you and say you’ve completely lost me but I know I’d be lying and part of me also believes you may not even care. It’s really hard to work out what you want and what you think. We don’t talk anymore, we get by on nights that drag on with mutual friends and their company. I wish I could just jump into a relationship with another person because maybe then I’d feel alive again. But it’s hard to let you go!!